Last night I had a dream, and you were there, but I couldn’t get to you. No matter how hard I tried, I couldn’t talk to you, or come near you. I was constantly dragged away from you every time I even got close. Someone else was always talking to you, but it was never me. Sometimes I feel the exact same way in real life. Like every time I get to you, you pull away. You’re reserved, quiet. You won’t talk to me like you used to. No matter how many times I apologize, I know things will never be the same. Someone else who is close to me is now close to you… And I’m not. And it kills me. I don’t know if it’s jealousy or just the pain of losing you. I don’t know.
You’re also impossible to read. You never talk to me so it feels like I’m bugging you whenever I talk to you, so I hardly ever speak to you. And when I do, you don’t say much and change the subject often. You’re completely different than you used to be.
And I just don’t think I can take it anymore.
btw I’m posting and writing everything from my phone, so that’s why I don’t have pictures.. I really don’t bother to turn on my mac, because of the memorise.. I miss him so much :/