Have you ever been attached to someone you shouldn’t be?
I wouldn’t call it an obsession, no. Just a fondness.
It’s innocent really
But it bothers me.
We’ve got this relationship, a better one than the usual
It kind of hurts to see him develop this same relationship with others though…
But I love it because I guess I feel like I don’t have that with anyone else
I suppose that’s why I’m so attached…
Man, writing this out is making me realize things that I didn’t know before…
Maybe I’m so attached to him because I have no one else to have a connection with
And maybe this is one of those things that, as soon as I find someone who has that connection with me, I’ll just forget about this other guy.
The problem with that, is I doubt anyone else will come along.
So I have to force myself to let go, for my own good
Even though I really don’t want to
Because, like I said, I guess my happiness feeds off that sense of belonging to someone…
That feeling that’s really hard to explain. You just feel like they put you above everyone else; like they like you a little better.
But it’s all just a sense of false belonging that I’m making up to comfort myself from the pain of actually having no one.
Damn, I should be a psychiatrist.