Tonight, September 19, I decided I didn’t like who I am. I decided I’m not worth it, I decided I’ll never get anywhere. I decided alone is what I’m destined to be. I stood outside in the ice cold rain for awhile hoping to feel anything but this never ending pain. When it only made it worse I went for a run. The rain pounding my face, my chest seething with pain from the cold air pumping into my lungs, the feeling of my feet meeting the concrete time after time. I was lost in the feeling of it all. The few minutes i didn’t have to focus on the pain I feel inside. That dull ache like ice through my veins. It was sweet. It was that rare moment when I could feel something other than miserable. A cold, cold rain is all I need to dull this pain.
“I wasnt born an angel but I still try to fly. I’ve got this hole inside, nothing satisfies… What will you remember when I say goodbye? If I say goodbye
Is it wrong that we are done with yesterday? Is it wrong that we wasted all this time? Is it wrong to just throw it all away? Is it wrong to just leave it all behind? yeah, yeah
What will you remember when I say goodbye? Doesn’t really matter what I leave behind.
Cause nothing is forever. (Nothing is forever) Would you even care if I say goodbye? If I say goodbye, if I say goodbye.”
Rev Theroy: Say goodbye